You are not a curse, you are not too much, you are needed here, you are enough.

"Wildfire" by SYML
Shenandoah National Park, Virginia, USA, 2017

The myth of the "tortured genius"

It is well known that more than a third of masters and PhD students worldwide suffer from anxiety, depression, and other mental health issues.  Research is tough even in the best of conditions, and pop culture continues to idolize the tortured genius to the point that many academic researchers measure their own success by how tortured they feel.

I have suffered from flavors of depression and anxiety since I was a teenager.  I have seen at least a dozen mental health professionals and tried numerous types of medication.  I have been misdiagnosed and mistreated.  And I have gotten better.

I am a big fan of Dialectal Behavior Therapy, Acceptance and Commitment Therapy, and Elaine Aron's theory on Highly Sensitive People (also known as people with Sensory Processing Sensitivity), but the best type of therapy is whatever helps you get better!  Below are few resources that have helped me especially during my academic journey:

Grim career prospects

I've found these sites to be fun ways to learn new things, which is a great confidence-booster during job hunting or when your "regular" research isn't going so well: